Momma passed away at 3:30am. 

(((Becksgirl)))
Your one of the first people I added. If you cannot
see past the entry of me talking about going protected
then something is wonky. Let me know for sure and I'll
try re-adding you.

I appreciate your support and prays more than you
know. Its pretty awesome when you actually stop and
think about just how many people out in this world are
thinking of you at any given momment. The
internet...ain't it something? Changed my life so
much...for the better :)

Its late gotta grab some shut-eye.

***This is NOT a protected post***

I replied to your email, but it bounced :(

I am in the proccess of going protected with most of my blog entries.

If you cannot see the entry stating ***PROTECTED POST*** at the top of it (just below this one), then you are not on my protected list.

Basically I went through and added the people that have been subscribed to me throughout this entire nightmare. If I missed you and you would like to be added, or if you read me but are not subscribed, please post in the comment section and I'll look into adding you. This does not mean that you will be added. Right now I have to feel safe, thats more important than you having access.

Thanks for understanding :)

Thank you to those that helped...your awesome :)

~hugs~

Two songs that I just can't seem to hear enough these days:

Ashlee Simpson~ Shadow

I was six years old
When my parents went away
I was stuck inside a broken life
I couldn't wish away
She was beautiful
She had everything and more
And my escape was hiding out and running for the door
Somebody listen please
It used to be so hard being me

Living in the shadow
Of someone else's dream
Trying to find a hand to hold but every touch felt cold to me
Living in a nightmare
A never-ending sleep
But now that I am wide awake
My chains are finally free
Don't feel sorry for me

All the days collided
One less perfect than the next
I was stuck inside someone else's life and always second best
Oh, I love you now 'cause now I realize
That it's safe outside to come alive in my identity
So if you're listening
There's so much more to me you haven't seen

Living in the shadow
Of someone else's dream
Trying to find a hand to hold but every touch felt cold to me
Living in a nightmare
A never-ending sleep
But now that I am wide awake
Then I can finally see
Don't feel sorry for me

Mother, sister, father, sister, mother
Everything's cool now
Mother, sister, father, sister, mother
Everything's cool now
Oh, my life is good
I've got more than anyone should
Oh, my life is good
And the past is in the past

I was living in the shadow
Of someone else's dream
Trying to find a hand to hold but every touch felt cold to me
I'm living in a new day
I'm living it for me
And now that I am wide awake
Then I can finally be
So don't feel sorry for me
Don't feel sorry, don't feel sorry for me

Living in, living in, living in the shadow
Living in, living in, living in a new day

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Joss Stone~ Right to be wrong (Sha says this song reminds her of me)

I've got a right to be wrong
My mistakes will make me strong
I'm stepping out into the great unknown
I'm feeling wings though I've never flown
Got a mind of my own
I'm flesh and blood to the bone
I'm not made of stone
Got a right to be wrong
So just leave me alone

I've got a right to be wrong
I've been held down too long
I've got to break free
So I can finally breathe
Got the right to be wrong
Got to sing my own song
I might be singing out of key
But it sure feels good to me
Got a right to be wrong
So just leave me alone

You're entitled to your opinion
But it's really my decision
I can't turn back I'm on a mission
If you care don't you dare blur my vision
Let me be all that I can be
Don't smother me with negativity
Whatever's out there waiting for me
I'm going to face it willingly

I've got a right to be wrong
My mistakes will make me strong
I'm stepping out into the great unknown
I'm feeling wings though I've never flown
I've got a mind of my own
Flesh and blood to the bone
See, I'm not made of stone
I've got a right to be wrong
So just leave me alone

I've got a right to be wrong
I've been held down to long
I've got to break free
So I can finally breathe
I've got a right to be wrong
Got to sing my own song
I might be singing out of key
But it sure feels good to me
I've got a right to be wrong
So just leave me alone